Feeling Lost.

Laura Maria Rojas Valencia- GMD

As someone who struggles with the ‘diagnosis’ of a serial procrastinator the first few months of this new journey has been challenging.
 
Waking up every morning not knowing exactly what I would be doing in a couple of months’ time or this year overall. I understand that this struggle is not unique, however as any person going on a journey of self-discovery there comes a point in life where you truly understand what the fear of the unknown means.
 
Reflecting on the fear
 
As an individual who for the last 17 consecutive years of my life has been studying, having now the opportunity to go out in the world demonstrating and proving myself is daunting.
 
For the majority of my life, I’ve had a schedule which has been waking up, commuting, school, commuting, sleep and then doing it all over again. The lack of schedule has not helped, but all of this experience is preparing me for when I do graduate and truly am on my own.

The realisation
 
After being in a limbo of unproductivity I finally recognised that the idea of having a schedule is all that I knew and that it could have actually been a limit to the possibilities of my potential. Not having a schedule gave me the chance to work for longer hours and when it best suited me. As a culture addicted to productivity, we tend to glorify routines and those who can stick to them. But it turns out there is nothing distinctively good about having a routine, nor distinctively bad about not having one. Working on several projects at the same time these past few months have been a battle of self-discipline as well as extremely productive, that it actually surprised me. My journey can only improve and go up from here and I can’t wait for what is to come. ​